It’s been a month since I announced to you all that I am starting a journey to turn my life around. After spiralling into madness and booking a two week trip to China I have just under six months to get my act together.
Let’s see if this will pay off or be a bust.
Quick Recap:
Last month I started this blog to hold myself accountable and to see if I have the guts to actually turn my life around for the better after years of debt, functional freeze and living with nothing to look forward to, I decided to book a trip to China, and here I am.
So what have I been doing this last month to get started? Well…
Trying to Quit Drinking and Smoking for Six Months
So how’s it going? To put it bluntly…not so great on this front. I haven’t been too well, hence the lack of content. And I’ve had no energy or motivation to get started on this. But I have reduced both significantly and will keep pushing to reduce more. Normally I would have beat myself up and called myself useless but I’m not allowed to do that to myself anymore so instead I’m cheering myself on for cutting back and saving even just a small amount.
For the time being, cutting back is enough. I switched from drinking around twice a week to once and will continue to cut that down. A pack of cigarettes has also been lasting me about 3-4 days, normally it would be everyday I would buy more.
Stopping Self Sabotaging
On being kinder to myself, note. I have decided to be much kinder to myself. No more calling myself stupid, or lazy or weak.
These are thoughts that stopped me in my tracks before and I won’t allow that to happen anymore, self doubt is not benefitting me. Changing how I speak to myself has had a huge impact on my mental health as well as what I’ve been able to achieve.
It has stopped the perfectionist side of me.
| Before: | Now: |
| No point in trying. I don’t have time. | I can do 30 minutes and get something started. |
| I don’t have all the tools and resources to start a business. | You can start the business and keep working on it until you have everything you need. |
| I feel overwhelmed by everything and don’t want to think about it. | It’s fine to feel overwhelmed but just doing one thing will reduce the work, making you feel less overwhelmed. |
Honestly, I heard these tips for being kinder to yourself for years, but guess what. Me being me I procrastinated on them, but honestly they have been a game changer and I have been able to produce some good results from just doing even 5 minutes of a task here and there. I will definitely continue to keep this mindset going forward.
This year I’m going to be so delusional. Believing that I can do anything I put my mind to and putting a lot more trust in myself.
How am I trying to get the money to pour in
I really struggle with this. Even though I am a hard worker I struggle to do things for myself, but in the vain of turning my life around I feel that this is the only way forward to push myself and have some financial stability. Proof that I would do (Almost) anything for China.
Writing the blog is one of the ways I’m turning my life around, taking accountability and building a portfolio for my writing career. On top of this I am also writing a book, but I will tell you more on that once China is done with.
Car Boot sale, I’m sure there’s enough crap… I mean valuable items I can sell in my house (spoiler there’s not so I’m going to beg and borrow from family) you know help them declutter as well.
Second Job, trying but finding nothing that I can do at the moment.
Selling my cats paw pics for money, I don’t think they’d mind.
Eft Tapping for wealth – Look I’ve never really been into the whole do this and money will come your way. But to be honest, even if I haven’t received any money from it, it certainly has helped calm me down. I know EFT tapping is a tool that taps (literally in this case) into your meridian points so even though I have not seen any results monetary wise. I have seen health results so I will use this for a while longer.
Subliminals – I’d never heard of these personally, but TikTok is awash with people saying how amazing this is. These are sounds that speak to your subconscious mind. You can use these for everything from money, romance and beauty. Again seen no results so far but I listen to them while I’m cleaning or gardening so it’s not taking anything away. I do feel like our brains are very powerful so it’s worth it to keep going.
I will update you on any miraculous results, if any, over the course of listening and tapping. I will not put any hard work down to these only things like money coming unexpectedly or winnings.
I am so desperate for money as you can tell.
The Side Hustles:
The biggest and most nerve racking thing I have done so far is to make a start on setting up my own business. This is for YouTube/TikTok scriptwriting and ads as well as blog writing. So far I have opened my own Fiverr account to sell on and plan to also set myself up on Upwork as well.
I will also be creating my own website for this and will link it all together in my blog for you to see once it’s all set up.
I am looking into some sort of uber or amazon delivery thing as well but only if I can do it on my own time.
Passive income, this always seems like a scam, but again I am open to anything and willing to give it a try. Currently I am researching Reddit etc. to find something I think could work but nothing as of yet.
How I am saving my money
No Spend Month, I will only buy food and pay bills, essentials only.
No heating (lucky this is spring) and keeping electrics to a minimum, TV off using candles, now it’s lighter nights I can read for longer. (Wait am I just going back to the dark ages?)
To be honest I feel like I’m floundering around in the dark, I have no idea what I’m doing and what’s going to work. My rhetoric is to just throw my hand at everything and see what works.
What I’ve saved so far in the past month = £150. Unfortunately it all went to debts but at least I have less debt now. I will keep going whether I end up with money or not, I am expanding my experience and trying new things and that cannot be a bad thing at all.
What’s your desperation side hustle? I need tips. Comment below and I will try some of your suggestions out.
Next Weeks blog preview: My Bank Account vs China who is winning? Check next week to see if I’ve made any progress.
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